Freeze This Moment a Little Bit Longer

I got to spend the day with my son, Adam, today.  It was just the two of us.  Once upon a time there was a little boy who chattered constantly to me.  He smiled at all of my jokes.  He didn't care where we went as long as we were together.  I was his world.  

I have always had a pretty good grasp on the reality that my purpose as a mom is to prepare him to stand on his own.  That mandate starts at conception.  We feed and nurture and lead and teach and discipline with the goal of seeing them stand tall on their own and thrive.

He is eleven now, going on twenty-seven it sometimes seems.  The separating is beginning in earnest.  I am not his whole world.  I am still his mommy.  He still hugs and kisses me in front of his friends.  I have made him promise he always will.  We'll see.

I see the Holy Spirit at work in and through him.  It takes my breath away.  I bought him mens sized sneakers the other day and it emptied my wallet.  What a season of transition for both of us.  I am not sure it is bearable.

Lord, hold on to him when he breaks free from my grip.

"Time Stand Still" 

(Rush) 

I turn my back to the wind
To catch my breath
Before I start off again.
Driven on without a moment to spend
To pass an evening with a drink and a friend

I let my skin get too thin
I'd like to pause
No matter what I pretend
Like some pilgrim
Who learns to transcend
Learns to live as if each step was the end

(Time stand still)
I'm not looking back
But I want to look around me now
(Time stand still)
See more of the people and the places that surround me now
Freeze this moment a little bit longer
Make each sensation a little bit stronger
Experience slips away
Experience slips away

I turn my face to the sun
Close my eyes
Let my defences down
All those wounds that I can't get unwound

I let my past go too fast
No time to pause
If I could slow it all down
Like some captain, whose ship runs aground
I can wait until the tide comes around

(Time stand still)
I'm not looking back
But I want to look around me now
(Time stand still)
See more of the people and the places that surround me now
Freeze this moment a little bit longer
Make each impression a little bit stronger
Freeze this motion a little bit longer
The innocence slips away
The innocence slips away...

Summer's going fast, nights growing colder
Children growing up, old friends growing older
Freeze this moment a little bit longer
Make each sensation a little bit stronger
Experience slips away
Experience slips away...
The innocence slips away